1 month until the big day!

D-day is fast approaching! Today is officially 1 month until he is due to arrive and to be honest, I'm terrified.

I'm terrified of the pain, I'm terrified of not being able to cope and I'm terrified that I'm not going to be a good mum. 

I have had a lot of practice over the last 4 years, helping JS to raise Rdogg and all the challenges that comes with raising a child with "extra needs." However, I've never had to do this from the very beginning. I'm worried about how this is going to affect my relationship, I'm worried about becoming post-natal as depression is something that I've dealt with throughout my adult life and overall I'm feeling incredibly guilty for how this could affect Rdogg. He finds it increasingly difficult to cope with even the smallest changes to his routine and even tho we have a lot of strategies in place to help him, I worry about how well he will deal with not being the centre of our little world any more. 

As the day gets closer and closer, my worries are increasing as rapidly as my bump and that makes me feel even more guilty as I know that stressing isn't very good for the baby. Team that with the physical pains of sciatica, pelvic girdle (imagine having an iron rod metaphorically pushed through your hips) lace of sleep and braxton hicks contractions I'm surprised I'm not in tears 24/7. I know I should be floating around in a haze of pregnancy glow and don't get me wrong, I am incredibly excited and I can't wait to have that first cuddle with my little boy, but with every day that passes, I feel less and less prepared for the challenges I'm about to face.

That being said, I have been using my time off whilst on maternity leave to do as much research as possible, to do as much decorating as possible and to get on top of all the housework.I think if I sit and give myself time to actually think about everything, I may have a meltdown :)

Now onto today's outfit:

maxi dress - H&M

I love this dress so much, with the birth of the little man coming closer, I have to be aware of things that I buy to make sure they will be suitable for when my bump has gone. This dress is perfect as it is fitted on my top with more of an empire waistline. I love the side slits and the semi-sheer skirt.What was even better was that I got this for half price as there was a rip in one of the side slits which I have managed to sew up easily!

I also keep joking that JS needs to learn how to do my make up so that he can put my face on before any photos of me and baby are taken. Nice challenge for him there.

Peace and Love

I went up a mountain!-35 weeks

Bonjour!

Landed back in the UK after a week in the French Alps with JS and Rdogg. The sun shone, the snow fell and we all generally had a good time. Rdogg has learnt how to ski for the first time and I finally got to see JS on a snowboard after years of hearing about his prowess but never having a chance to witness it with my own eyes.

When I spoke to people about flying at 33 weeks pregnant, a look of pure horror would spread across their faces

"but what if you go into labour on the plane??!?" they cried. The truth is, the flight was so short that I probably would have still been in labour when we landed so I would have had a Swiss baby (we flew to Geneva) instead of a baby born in Huddersfield. Plus, I had my amazing mother law/midwife with me so I knew she'd keep me safe :)

I wish I had paid more attention to the  weather forecast as I packed many layers and jumpers and tights thinking it was gonna be freezing, only to be overheating most days in 20 degree heat!

Here's a couple of my fave snapshots from the week:

Now I'm back on non snowy land and officially on maternity leave (hoooray) I'm concentrating on planning my birth and getting all the final bits together for arrival of baby RS. Leaving the house is getting more and more difficult as the list of clothes I own that I can actually fit into is drastically getting smaller and smaller with each passing day. To add to this, I have a wedding to attend on Saturday and it's my birthday on Friday. I think that will be spent making myself depressed, dragging my egg-like self around the shops to find something suitable.

Today's outfit is one of my only dresses that actually fits without me having to wear tights under it, which, now the sunshine has returned, is a good thing really.

This is the amazing velvet and lace dress I got in the Topshop sale and I have teamed it with my trusty leather jacket and SheInside sunglasses. (similar here)

Counting down until baby RS appears - 5 weeks left!

As always, peace and love

Motel Daisy jumper review

It arrived!

To be honest I was shocked when I answered the door to the postman this morning in my lion pyjamas and he handed me a bundle of packages.

Seeing as I only ordered this jumper on Wednesday, I am literally over the moon with how fast the delivery was!

Anyway, onto the jumper.

It is literally the softest thing I have ever felt. As soon as I took it out of the packaging, all I wanted to do was bury my face in there and I immediately threw off said lion pyjamas and threw on the jumper.

It fits just like a dream, although I'm glad I went for the medium rather than the small as I feel it would have been too short (even for a cropped jumper.) The neck, although it is a high turtleneck style isn't too tight and makes me feel like I'm having a soft furry cuddle. The quality of this jumper is superb as to be expected from Motel.

I'm so so over the moon with it and I know I will be able to carry this right through even until after my pregnancy. Bravo Motel, bravo.

This is what I styled it with:

Mysterious beanie that appeared in my house//Motel Daisy Jumper//Zara sheer maxi skirt//Grey Plaid shirt (stolen from Will at work - I will give it back one day!)

I also received a gorgeous faux fur stole which I purchased from ebay what feels like a million years ago, which unfortunately, didn't survive the school run today and must have been unknowingly ripped from my shoulders as I collected R-dogg.

Anyone who's ever stepped foot in a primary school at collection time knows just how much of a circus it is, so even though I am absolutely gutted it's gone, I'm not totally surprised either.

Speaking of ebay, I am selling a few bits and bobs that either don't fit anymore or I just can't wear now that I am expanding at the speed of light.

If you're interested, go and have a gander HERE, and maybe pick up a bargain!

Peace and love

Motel Madness

The absolute babes over at Motel have been super kind and extended their sale until SUNDAY with upto 70% off some items!

Here's my top sale picks:

1. Margie Denim skater dress - £20

2. Mademoiselle off shoulder dress - £28

3. Verona Daisy cropped turntleneck sweater - £25

4. Suni bodycon midi dress - £20

Whenever I'm wanting to add something fresh and new to my wardrobe I always head over to Motel as I feel they have something for every occasion that fits with my personal style. Plus, there's always something from Motel in my wishlists.

Being the sale snooper that I am, I bought the daisy cropped jumper. Although I seem to have a plethora of fluffy black jumpers, I kind of feel that when you live in the UK, there's no such things as "too much" when it comes to knitwear. I can't wait for it to arrive! 

 Don't forget you can get 20% off as well by using the code "lvcat" at the checkout.

Monday wishlist

To help combat that "Monday feeling"  I've made a list of things I'm lusting after this week:

1.Faux leather asymmetric t-shirt - Romwe - £28.70

2. Dreamy Ring - Cheap Monday - £5

3.Polley shoe - Dr Martens - £90

4. Flared Dress - Zara - £22.99

5.PVC Skater midi skirt - Missguided - £19.99

6. Minnie Dress - Monki - £35

7. PVC and fur backpack - MotelRocks - £40

I've become slightly obsessed with PVC and faux fur/leather recently. I think it's because pre-pregnancy I would have avoided them for fear of accidentally showing off lumps and bumps whereas now that's exactly what I do what to show off! Also, they're kind of tacky and I LOVE IT. I've seen some people style the PVC midi skirt really well over the last couple of weeks and that's also made me want one of my own. I think it will be next payday/Thursday's purchase :) The two dresses I have picked are just divine! The first has all the simple elegance I've come to expect from Zara and I think it would see me through till summer as it is perfect for layering over my mesh top, a turtle neck or a plain white t-shirt while its cold and then when the warmer weather hits, it can fly solo with some chunky platform sandals and cute socks. The Minnie dress from Monki also reminds me of this great crochet dress I had from American Apparel last year which I wore to death during the summer except it has a handy slip underneath! I love the sportswear feel it has and everyone needs a t-shirt dress in their wardrobe. Simple, fast and easy!

So I was also meant to have my 20 week scan today at the hospital. For those of you who are completely baby un-aware, as I was, the 20 week scan is when you find out if you're having a boy or a girl.

So me and JS trotted up to the hospital on his lunch break to go get scanned and see our little bean again just to find out that due to my horrific pregnancy brain (that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it) I had got the dates wrong and we were originally booked in to go on the 9th. Thus resulting in tears and me apologising profusely to JS and being mad at myself ect ect.

There is a happy ending however!  The amazing nurse managed to re-book me to go get my scan on Wednesday, so we only have to wait two more days. Which, will give me two more days to try and convince JS to let us find out who exactly is in there.

20 week update:

My tummy measures: 92.5 cm / 36.5"

My waist is: 83 cm / 32.5"

Craving chocolate and trying not to give in. Heartburn has been a devil this week. Only a few headaches. Back to work tomorrow!

Happy 2014 - 19 weeks

Welcome to the first post of 2014!

Sorry for the silence over the festive period, but as anyone who has small children will know (I have a 6 year old) Christmas time is a whirlwind which leaves very little time of anything other than seeing family and making sure everyone manages to get, at least, some sleep.

But regardless, I hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year!

Me, JS, R-dogg and the bump got incredibly spoilt this year and I was again left feeling overwhelmed by peoples love and generosity. Here's a few photo highlights:

1.Hung out with my niece for a few days - 2.Got a new toy - 3.R-dogg surrounded by gifts in the car

4.Wore my iridescent pine/black lace dress - 5.Instax of me and JS on boxing day - 6.Reds date

7.Bit of light new years reading - 8.Gorgeous cats eye glasses from JS

So January is all about one thing - SALES! I had a wonderful day yesterday waddling around the sales in Leeds with my Sister and niece, trying things on whilst trying to entertain an 18 month old. Which was no easy task.

I managed to get a couple of gorgeous finds in the Topshop sale which hopefully I will be able to wear right through my pregnancy and afterwards as well :)

My favourite find was this amazing velvet and lace midi dress which I got for an outstanding £15!

It fits so well and has these lovely lace cut out bits in my rib area and up the sides as well. Just the right amount of sexy which means I can dress this up or down. I've really fallen in love with it.

For this look I've teamed it with my red and blue velvet tasselled kimono, my black lace socks and chunky black boots.

Something very exciting happened over Christmas, we started to feel the baby kicking! It's got such a vicious kick and has taken to booting me in the bladder in the middle of the night. What a rascal.

so at 19 weeks:

My tummy measures: 90 cm / 35.5"

My waist is: 80 cm / 31.5"

I have lots of energy and just want to eat and eat and eat, which after chirstmas is a bit of a problem.

The baby seems to kick more when I'm listening to music. Me and JS went to see Alcoa last night and the baby kicked and squirmed all the way through. It was wonderful.

Hope you had an amazing festive time! has anyone else found any good sale bargains?